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__moody mood__
__last but nt least__
_no longer MIA_
_pain and plasters start with P_
_golden collar_
_Slithering Thoughts_
_night of torment_
_food and movies_
HAPPY FEEEEEET
_all the selfishness inside me_

AND SAY

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YOU LOVE ME

Sunday, November 19, 2006

i have a desire to soar up, far and high. but i also do realise i lack wings.

THURSDAY

on thursday, i was supposed to meet cher after school and go shop all the items we yearned like mad. i was so looking forward to thursday bcos i was really itching to shop and needed the items urgently. know what? she left her phone at home, after msging me saying she had to work. now even a sorry except a "sian" inside her msg as an "apology."

i almost scolded mz mum when she picked up the phone, thinking its her. lucky i din cos auntie did not deserve it. i called cartel, thinking that i should go down and scold her, cos i was really damn angry. why did she have to do this to me? if wanna work, cant i work too?

hello? i got 3 places to work at leh... and each is higher earning? if i were not to work bcos i dated her and she put me plane cos she went to work and left me stranded like a mega mega idiot, i think i lost out more right. wth. i guess thats what frens like her are for.

saw loti on msn and complained and she offered to pei me, tho her work ends at 6pm she must be rather tired. its all abt effort, cant you see? i dont even get a call from the person who stood me up cos i dont think she been working continuosly for 2 days without going home, without access to her phone.

hence, im pretty sure she jolly well thinks im dead. and i need to do my projects but i do not have a thumbdrive to use. cos i lend her mine and its not an extra anyway. am i dumb or nuts. i must be retarded.i really do not know what to do already. loti says she's dependent on me.

but if thats really the case, why doesnt she need to at least call me once every two days? i might be dead but she doesnt know, unless mz or who tells her! hahas... even mz also sensed im unhappy and she's the cause of it. great. i cant imagine how she passes her day without thinking or recalling anything to do with me cos i cant and i hate myself for that.

anyway, enough about people who live in this world to hurt me when i just wanted to be there for them. so anyway, lynn and loti and me went tamp, eat Hans and shopped around for all we needed. thanks girls. din noe what would i have done without you girls... cos i really needed to get mui top... =D

i need to get mui camera and it was not bought as promised. ha, tell me why man. so anyway, i decided to postpone buying it for as long as possible. but im gonna get it before mid dec anyway, so as to capture all the lovely images! all the gatherings! haiz...

FRIDAY

went back school to write out script for tml's role play ica. it was tiring cos i did not have enough sleep, rushing projects and of cos, watching Bleach in between... im officially hooked, all thanks to mui brother. he siao eh, he watched until 100 plus episodes already and passed on the disease to ME. poor me...

Bleach is really touching for all the stories in the episodes... as far as i rmb, i watched till episode 11 already and for all the episodes when a story comes to an end after explaining the story of a Hollow, mui tissue box would be halved... hahas...

this anime (as corrected by miss joey) is about shinigamis referred as soul reapers in the anime, destroying Hollows and the story of the Hollows and the story of those they harmed. Hollows are souls with the chain of Faith connecting their chest to the human world broken, causing them to become monsters having no love and only thinks of devouring other souls de souls.

Hollows are much stronger than souls, are invisible, unless to people who high level of spritual senses and have their faces hidden behind a ghastly white, hard skull mask. they come in alot shapes and sizes, powers and tricks up their slevee. after saying so much, i guess its worth a watch ain it? hahahahas...

TODAY after script writing and planning, i went to work for David. he owns the Club Chinosis at Orchard Parade Hotel. its a very posh place and the restaurant functions on the fusion of chinese and western culture and settings. cool. you should have seen their glasses, super BIG can. hahas...

wore their unifrom and went onto the bus for sending us to the Istana. working the function in which George Bush comes for dinner you see. damn impressive de saying wor... hahas... but you know what? waited outside the security check point for abt an hour before we can go in for they have not affirm our identities... damn strict xia...

the place is very big, got slope, and alot gardens all around. there were alot of armed guards around. but i would not have noticed the guns if David had not pointed them out for me. lols... to satisfy your curiousity, David is a 24yr old guy, slightly on the short side but super fit if you get what i mean (the kinda guy thats super capable of bear hugs lah i should say) and the best i want from him, is his rosy cheeks.

wth, red by nature... if it were mine, i would not require blusher anymore, lols... but i recently also haven been applying it lah, cos i think its kinda unnatural... hahas... if only i dont have dark eye rings! then i would not need to put on any make up at all and not scare others while feeling super inferior... sad le lah... sadded...

anyway, back to topic... everyone seems so experienced! im so green, lols... and a guy named "i din catch his name, he said suan le so i call him suan le" guessed im 19! what audacity! im only 18, you idiot...
and his 15 lah... i hate having younger peeps ard me can... make me feel so old...

if not then i always mix around with uncles... make me feel so despo... but i do know they are the ones who can show me things and teach me stuffs that guys our age cant. David says he wants me to see and learn, and then work for him... Brandon works for Stewart, the guy working for an agency...

David works for his boss, the big boss of Tung Lok company... you know Tung Lok ma? "tong le ji tuan"... 20 branches internationally... and i saw all their bosses today! hahahahahas... and i saw Wu Chuo Dong also! alamak... hahas... and his wife, George Bush and alot of big shots and ang mohs... hahas...

machiam like movei like that! before movie, they stand in an area, talking, conversating with each other... while i serve them, wine and juices in glasses on trays, erm simply put, cocktail party like that lah... hahas... then after which they dine a 5 course dinner, lasting around 45 mins cos must minus the 15 mins speech, in a room with live band playing and singer singing while struming the guitar independently... cool!

it was really an eye opener for me... first time leh... and this guy that works in the restaurant while calefaring tonight (the 15yr old guy) keep scolding me stoopid! walau eh... a 15yr old scold a 18yr old... where can like that de... angry xia... as in the qi gei way lah cos we squabbling, not quarreling... if you get what i mean...

anyway, realised how lousy i was lah... guess this industry everyone started out earlier den me... very sian... he worked high class straight while i had to work my way up... like from cafe, to restaurant and then finally something more in touch with the hospitality sector... hmmm...
better buck up... but im so thankful i get to learn so many things.. =D and im scared i might really be getting a little ***** lah... hahas... or maybe its just that all the ****** seem so much better ba... and they really are i guess...

MISTAKES MADE
1. carried too many glasses on my cocktail tray
(heavy and no need for that)

2. made too much noise
(shoes and arranging of cutlery)

3. asking guests to be seated before BIG shots came in
(i was asked to ask if you get what i mean)

4. crossed over guest when distributing cutlery
(ain supposed to do that)

5. gave ladies n gentlemen cutlery by status
(wastes time and is not necessary)

THINGS LEARNT
1.always serve from guests' right

2.cocktail is for show, a few glasses will do

3.do not cross over guest when distributing cutlery

4.food should be served, lowest ladies, higher ladies, lowest gentlemen, higher gentlemen, highest lady, highest boss. (high low in terms of rank or status)

5.after asking whether guests wans chinese tea, one shld take off the cover and clear, OR just place the cover against the tea cup stand. (this is so that the person pouring tea knows who wants tea.)

SATURDAY

went shopping at J8 with joy... after nt seeing her for the whole of her exam week... hahas... i waited one hr... cos i arrived too early and she reached abit late.... hahas... super long journey de 53 bus! lols...

i walked ard... saw a few things that i want n bought it when she came... hahas... and! we were wearing the same shirt (planned) and bag(unplanned)!!

we ate at ajisen... hmmm... J8 ajisen sucks... food wise, okie okie only... service wise, cannot make it... chefs, uncles... service staff, kinda dao... guys okie okie, gals cannot make it... lols...

work at night was nt good... upon reaching tio gan liao... siann... cos of schedule thingy... cos R din noe i going beforehand tho boss ed knew... but e main point to me is that you lack people i come despite anything, ain that gd enuff already?

whats with the damn schedule fuss? actually i do not believe in the dividing zone way of handling the place... cos the places, gets filled up part by part, correct. but when we do rounds, we walk ard. not abt e same zone... zzz...

and when you walk past and customers call, you hafta serve de what... so whats with the allocating zone thingy...? its better to stick to positions like sashimi collar, grill collar, kitchen collar, ordertakers, setters and clearers, tea refillers, private room handlers... by tasks, rather than area...

anyway, in the beginning was so pissed off that i almost quitted on the spot... bcos you can say i dont work good enough but you cannot be biased against me. cos if thats e case, i wun even wanna do anything abt it loh... and what can i do?

well, anyway, if you not gonna dote on me, its fine. im not a magnet anyway but at least treat me right for my effort or what... now e old birds call me muscle woman, the guys call me queen of clearing...

i reply saying, i do not have good looks, i am not cute, hence the only thing i can do is to smile as often and do more than others to prove my worth... cos we cant deny having gd looks or being cute paves a smoother way ain it? and dun call me muscle woman... very nan ting leh... lols...

and our mr charming changed targets already... im sick of changes. CHANGES SUCKS BIG TIME. dunno what other words to express how i feel le... argh.

and i must learn that work is work... colleagues are colleagues, boss is boss and i must not expect too much of either... haiz... learn learn learn, you idiot. bakado.

SUNDAY

work today at v8 was nice... ytd talked ABIT to boss ed and we better alrdy... but well... nv as good as before for sure but... aiya... and he asked me work today morning but i agreed v8 12-10 le ma...

but in e end i got msg winner lah, say i go at 5pm can anot... then she say she lack people also... so i just msg boss ed say i cant le... so i kinda irritate both parties lah... haiz... whatever lah...

and today mabel come work xia... zzz... she weird lah... and i realise maybe daisy is not s simple as she seems... haiz... she so changeable...
poor soe and me i suddenly feel.... we both are victims of her changes...

hahas...but spending time with auntie mary has always been good... have been super happy during work today... hahas... except that henry is sick and that some silly mistake today was indirectly caused by me... siann....

so e kitchen winds turn this way and that way lah... but i noe they treat me much better than other kitchens i guess... today gt 2 gals come for interview... wah honoured xia...

suddenly all e full timers cun be bothered... ask me interview and handle them... lols... of cos was pleased lah... but do rmb e case i worked longest for all outside staff... hahas... if only susan was still around... our pillar... haiz...

today i scalded my hand quite badly... felt the burning for at least 2hrs afterwards... siann... so thats how it feels like... no injuries or what but just skin feeling limp and cannot touch any hot stuffs... zzz... haiz...

so hard to find a good working place le... i think im too emotional for WORK PLACES le and the one to suffer shld be me in the end, taking so many things, some for learning purposes, some for emotional reasons...

but the talk with boss ed did remind me i was one of his first waitresses, who went thru all the courses... together with him, started working the moment the business is open... haiz... and i realise...

that all the concerns he said and i felt previously was really blinded by my pissed off at manager that i really decided to quit. and the fact that everyone just worked... no joke... etc...

i guess its really the "you laugh, whole world laughs with you", "you cry, the world spins on its own still"... siann...

i freakingly hate it when people attitude me. other than being emotional, im moody... so dont mess with me or you will get worse... i can dont care who needs me anymore if im not appreciated... i can just stop working and rest or whatever...

work all your staffs to death, they will not be happy either... worse still, dont provoke me so much till i say i will come for work and not come... hope nobody shall compel me to become this kinda person... yet.

Wished She Was Loved ;

11/19/2006 11:34:00 PM