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FoOd!
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FIGHTS WITH:

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FORGET THEM

___OPH V8 SHIN-go round___
WEDNESDAYwed worked 7-10 for v8 cafe...was quite a...
monday, tuesday, wednesday
THURSDAY went out with my girls... going along lyn...
__PSA scenery__
__what you see is what you get__
__PS PS PS__
__furniture shop classics__
__candid shots meant 2b ugly__
__PS gathering trip__

AND SAY

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YOU LOVE ME

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

been not blogging for long... one reason is no time... sorry guys... another reason is i bu shuai blog lah... cos i have the knowledge that some tom dick harry can just enter here and read all my thoughts...

then what for i set a password "protected" blog to just share thought with my friends or to talk to them? haiz...

mui horoscope for the day:

Dear rain lee,
Here is your horoscope for
Tuesday, December 12:

You have a great need to be of service to others, but you can't do so at the expense of all your resources. It's time to find a happy medium between making others happy and keeping your own batteries charged.

ain this so very true? i always go to where im needed just so people wun suffer so much... bee says she worries for me cos i care too much about others... but at least this is the part where she knows i do not change...

sometimes i wonder whether izzit very overwhelming for her to come back and realise that everybody has changed so much... for me... i've been there through all the changes yet i still kinda cannot take it that well, seriously...

over these two years, i matured alot from the sec school me... still very immature but really i learn alot more, i learn and adjusted myself to some things classrooms do not prepare you for. cannot really say i dislike or like the way i am now, but i still miss the old days.

STUDIES
nth now, just come school everyday... do abit stuffs here and there and hang out with the girls or just sleep, that's all... peiwen and me now kinda not bad already lah, tho sometimes she and grace also close till push me aside but other than that, all is fine...

FRIENDS
recently just went mz place... i think it should be 2 days after auntie's bdae... the girls were all there yet i wasnt... kinda upset about it but i had no choice... after that when i oversleep my mrt stop and ended in tanah merah, i went mz house instead...

actually i kinda feel lonely, now that all of them are in tampines... on the mrt stop now, i drop off at bedok alone, i wait for bus at bedok inter alone... its not really convenient to meet at bedok inter with the girl who lives ard 10mins from inter, just as me who lives 7mins away from the interchange...

loneliness actually does not come from being alone. it comes from being alone, when you know you could have had someone by your side. ain this true? its really not easy getting that comfortable companionship, especially when people you care about are always so busy...

and i dunno whats wrong with me... i just dont want to get hurt again but i dont seem to be able to stick to my DONTS for not getting hurt. cos i called cher about when she's coming and stuffs. having given in and called her, i feel so irritated at myself that i attituded her... zzz... so we ended up quarreling...

but i also wanna prove, the things they always say, that she is dependent on me and stuffs, is bullshit... nobody is indispensible... for all the fanciful talks and advices people give whenever we quarrel, its all CRAP. she can just jolly well drop me off her world that easily. so of cos i gotta take the cue to keep the game going...

but im also really glad that bee is back... she always make me feel not so alone... cos i know no matter what she really understands me... that day when we went shoppingm, we were chatting, me asking her views on somethings and she updating me about her life...

she said all the everything i wanted to hear, all kinda based on last time reception and understangin... but it all feels so familiar... because no matter how much i change on the outside, my inside will never change... inside, im still me, no matter how much better i have trained and geared myself up for work or entertaining...

its just so comforting to know that bee will always care about me in the way i care for her and not let me down... thanks alot bee... on the other hand, i am kinda sad that im abit drifting apart with joy, because now we have much much lesser contact...

she's also been a very busy girl, in school stuffs, cca commitments and busy in bliss, hahas... hope she will always remain this happy... im so looking forward to tommorrow's shopping with her... i actually applied leave for it you know... 21 hrs of flexi leave to be applied, spread over a period of 10 weeks... >_<

WORK
im now arthur's god daughter... became quite some time ago le... but it was long after he appointed me to be trained as VIP server... im still damn stressed and sometimes when he addresses me arh girl in front of everyone i feel kinda paiseh but also happy at the same time...

but i also do not know what i ahve i done to deserve all this... everyone thinks i appear so close with him and that we are like so good with each other... him doting on me is so obvious but the thing is, i feel that everything is travelling at too fast a speed...

its like im caught in the current and cannot control things nor have tiome to see whats in front of me and behind me anymore...things just happen and go... so far i cried twice... its like people there, black jackets and stuffs, sometimes they really make me feel like im useless without huihui jie...

its not that i learn very slow or what, its just that im not trained...everyone see me VIP server, they envy me and say i must have worked very long and stuff... but no, i wasnt trained, din work long and im suddenly expected to be miss smarty pants and know it all... zzz...

anyway, i set up a new blog already... under construction, now, i gtg... so... TO BE CONTINUED

Wished She Was Loved ;

12/12/2006 09:01:00 AM