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WEDNESDAYwed worked 7-10 for v8 cafe...was quite a...
monday, tuesday, wednesday
THURSDAY went out with my girls... going along lyn...
__PSA scenery__
__what you see is what you get__
__PS PS PS__
__furniture shop classics__
__candid shots meant 2b ugly__
__PS gathering trip__
__BUGIS xmas lights__

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YOU LOVE ME

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

my beloved ones, so long since i've blogged... have just so much to say yet i cant find time to tell you guys... missed you all... thanks for not giving up on my blog just yet, lols... its gonna be a long entry, hence im setting a in a glance for my really busy darlings...

IN A GLANCE

friday
-worked v8
-felt overworked
-people there getting more selfish
-soe treats me differently
-new gal yun mei gets soe's attention

saturday
-went shopping with bee
-enjoyed it very much
-work at OPH gets me obssessed with it
-shock of being told that someone cares (ask me for more details)

sunday
-alot new stuffs within shin
-im rusty, got blamed for pple's mistakes
-ed was hot and cold
-sher remains nice to me, i miss her so...
-bee came n worked at OPH (her first job)

monday
-worked a lousy night
-worked normal tables
-spilled and dropped stuffs
-served bloody cheena pple, irritatingly choiced...zzz...
-saw huihui, missed her so...
-im getting so damn bloody reliant i hate myself

FRIDAY (01/12)

went to sch... as usual loh... from 8.30am to 6pm loh... then after that went v8 work... found myself working weekends for them again i guess... but its always shit work lah... cos fridays are VERY busy days....and they happen to be very SHORT handed...

so even if i reach early, i also cannot eat, cos i just hafta go out and help... cos there are like 2 new people out there, on a friday night with a short handed situation... lols... so i find myself doing two or three people stuffs...

super irritating... i feel so overworked... but at least this is something i can always handle with confidence so at least its not so bad... hahas...anyway, guess the people there getting more and more inconsiderate... like they dun really leave food behind for me...zzz...

SATURDAY (02/12)

meet up with bee in the morning till late noon... then worked at OPH. hahas... meaning banquets lah... hahas...
went marina square with bee... forgotten to tell her that its gonna be cold there... sorrie girl... and i promise to make time out for her... been not meeting her for too long too long le...

tho the closeness is there, i shall not take it for granted...at least haiz, i know i can dote on her with all my heart... unlike someone who sometimes i wanna be like the past and dote but i hafta hold back, cos i just dont wanna be hurt again... theres just so many ways a person can get hurt...

anyway, shopping there with bee was nice, tho she din manage to catch her soya ice cream, hahas... i only wished i have had more money with me then, so that we both din hafta hold back muich on anything... but we did find alot things to buy... but since it did not go with her prom... hahas... we din buy...

im still rather proud of myself for not spending on any shopping stuffs anyway... hahas... and i took a lot of pictures... bee! all the best to your prom yea? and i kinda really missed joy... long time like never contact with her le...sad to say... this days i always have had contact with bo liao people...

actually im turning lazee, i just respond when msged and spoken to... so this days are just all the bo liao guys contacting me... not to hao lian or what... but i really feel kinda no life... what i want is seriously not all this... my passion for working is so great i think i sux cos i cant control myself...

i lunge myself so deep in i cant see anything else anymore... the worst thing is that there is no one to hold me back... you know what... i always tell myself... what for i care about this about that? because i feel that no one else cares... its like im single, im free to be anything and who cares if im like overworking, if im nt so ladylike or what...

i ask the same questions so many times already... why would people even like a girl like me? for sleeping she can lose all erm posture and ladylike-ness, if i have had any to start off with... and i think i wanna cut down on my eating.,.. its scary now how my body can react tand show all the extra food i have been eating... i scare myself.

and suddenly someone tells me he cares, giving me the shock of the day...

SUNDAY (03/12)

worked shin from 12 till 5... supposed to start at 10 but i was just too tired to wake early and i just thought i should give myself a break... really gonna break down soon... in terms of health or mentally i dont know. its not really the running about so many places that makes me sick... its all the thinking and actions i have to do and think that makes me sick and tired i guess...hahas...

there were alot of new things to be updated... they changed menus, changed table numbers, changed POS system functions and there were a few more new people, good for ed who managed to hire more new people also... but sadly, all foreigners...

and ed framed me for a mistake others make... and i corrected mistakes for others, with the fear of being accused of it as my own... pathetic isnt it... this moment ed says he misses me and the other moment he blames me for others' mistakes... wth... haiz... was so sad and disappointed...

the nmore this place upsets me, the more unwilling i will be, to work. even tho there will be people there who treats me not bad... but it just pales in comparison to the other places... ed, do u really care about your branches so much...? how i wonder...

after that went OPH work nights...was backstabbed and pushed aboput ard by ALOT black jackets... i hate ex... bloody hell... damn sissy, pick on a girl like me who has to take on all the stress of serving the VIP table, meaning the bride and groom table one by one on my own...

please rmb i only worked there for a month or so only... and i've worked VIPs so far and only twice of normal tables to date... BJ (black jacket) 1 says this, BJ 2 says that and now, who am i supposed to listen to? and do 2 BJs hafta quarrel in front of me? wth... zzz...

working there sure is tiring man... mentally especially and sometimes the people there de temper just sucks...

VIP TABLE (MAIN TABLE) NORMAL TABLES
60 plates 60 plates
30 underliners 30 underliners
20 spoons 20 spoons
8 sets of serving gear 12 sets of serving gear
1 ladle 1 ladle
1 tea pot 7-9 napkins
1 tea pot heater 1 white napkin
2 candles 5 glass jugs
7-9 green napkins 1 or 2 metal jugs
1 white napkin 5 small trays
2 metal jugs 3 oblong trays
2 glass jugs
2 big trays
2 small trays
1 red wine

AND! be surprised! BEE CAME TO WORK WITH ME. her partner saisd she did well, but i know its very tough lah, not everyone can tahan work banquets de... so i understand her working once and not wanting to come again le... hahas...

she said arthur talk cocky, which i agree with all my heart lols... but after work he really super nice to me lah... hahas... to know more details can chat with me for it... far too private for a blog... lols...

MONDAY (04/12)

worked OPH after school... kinda half rushed there and found myself there at half an hour before seven and slowly took my time in preparing... came out and realised roll call was over... anyway, was assigned to one person two tables... damn sway de thing is i never have had experience with normal tables enough and i spilled while clearing stuffs ytd... siann...

cos i gt sch and jiaxi hols ma so i GOTTA arrive late and so was assigned normal tables and jiaxi gotta be teamed with my fav huihui jie jie... the VIP pro pro... lols... she was the one who taught me, as well as jiaxi loh... i really missed her, whenever i got bullied or pushed ard... so happened that sometimes those that dote on me nv work, i DIE...

well, at least so far, already found people who dote on me le, but equally so it is for jiaxi... and she hasnt offended ex... i see him work i siann diao... beginning thought he quite nice de... bloody hell... must hope hope hope he goes back to working restuarant...

you can never know how things can go after work... hahas...am i wrong to wanna share cab and wait time for supper cos i dun wanna rush for last train? am i really after saving the cab money but also because i wanted to have time with the seniors? hahas... >_<

btw, few days agio i cun rmb when, i chatted with smartie back again... and shin has this girl same name as him xia... whereas v8 now got new guy named joey also... talk about haunting memories... and OPH has this guy that resembles joey pattern... o hell... and his 18, studying in np... bee gt see him before... she asked...

why do you go for tall guys? it juts happened by chance can? and it was funny and scary... when they (arthur and guys) pointed out say i liked him, all cos of his shirt... i said... "wo xi huan ni de yi fu!" meaning " i like your shirt" and they said i like him... cos inside the phrase contains "wo xi huan ni" meaning "i like you" dots...

but he really very nice.. like when i cannot handle and there was this day when he wore a BJ, he helped me, i responded or replied something... then he say i act cute... then i say cute anot, lols... he looked at me in the eyes and then i turned away (act shy) cos i think he gonna say something nasty....

and know what ma? after sometime he says, "not bad lah, hai ting cute de lah" and walked away... "
meaning, not bad lah, still quite cute loh" and he asked why i turn my head away xia... LOLS. then i say is cos i expected something nasty... he say no lah, "mei you lah and walked back to his duties... AWWWW, LOLS"

hmmm, i know bee thinks and feels the guys talk and think dirty and ain afraid to show it...its her first time encountering such people... i met before so i know... but somehow i feel safe with them, cos i know they are all just talk, for people like david, when he comes up close...

he doesnt say anything, but that doesnt mean he doesn notice or observes... sickening... im so scared of him now... he must thinkk im ungrateful since he brought me in to work and now im like running away from him... whatever lah... since mui arh pa ensures that he wun do anything with him ard...

so many questions to ask, so many mixed up feelings...haiz...

Wished She Was Loved ;

12/05/2006 11:08:00 AM