Thursday, October 26, 2006
so as not to test my memory of remembering what actually happened these days, let me just say what happened today. im rather sure that it should be enough to entertain youuuuuuuuu...
MORNING
had to wake up early for school... actually there was no school today but i had a make up lesson... but im always seeking for fun and excitment... so i chose to skip mui make up lesson and crash cher lec at TAS (tourism academy at sentosa; if i nt wrong)...i reached ard 1 and half hr earlier...
and jt was msging me, peiwen was msging me, made me feel so left out actually, due to reaching ealry and skipping class that i actually regretted mui decision of skipping the make up class...but im already late, cannot cry over spilled milk liao...
so i waited for cher to come, had breakfast with her at Seah Im hawker centre... the food is nice and cheap... and i ate 4 eggs leh... the breakfast dunno how boiled kind? lols... talk about being hooked... hahas... and nai lemak loh...
and i had a huge quarrel with mummy and papa before leaving house... haiz... always de leh... cos papa dig mui bag and found the Predential agreeement i have, the one abt saving $70 a month de... and being able to withdraw money after saving for a year and can withdraw $500 yearly from 2nd year onwards...
they were ranting and ranting non stop after how dumb i was, why din i consult them before signing, and why was i so foolish to do it and why didn they do it too if it was really that good... but im already so old le, cant they let me decide what i want?
you know people are shocked when i say i let mui mum keep mui IC cos she's scared that i would lose it? but its e truth and i also dun dare bring it with me, cos i know i have a high chance of losing it also anyway... but some things i want to be able to decide, its just $70 a mth, with 2 jobs, dun tell me i cant even afford that...
and mummy says i have changed... people who really know me should know that i am always affected by words said like this... especially from people who mean to me... i mean at my age, i know i do really put mui friends as priority over family but i still do feel for mui family de loh... so what she says, hurts...
she says she doesnt know me anymore... so what is that supposed to mean... i reach home, dad's asleep, i reach home, mummy also asleep cos she gotta wake and work early the next morning... i can always say i prefer having a housewife-ed mummy but i know she is happier to be working and i respect that... but alot things have changed...
so many times i do not have her, i learnt to be abit more independent... i learnt not to cry that much, be that emotional, to expose myself to the whole wide world, tho mz always says that this few mths, i have been crying very easily over work, be it V8 or SK... and its always outta anger even tho i do hold it to the last sec... haiz...
but there was also one time when mummy said she thinks i have become stronger, ever since i had my braces, for i was so afraid of pain the last time i would cry when i felt pain or determined aches even tho i was a dare devil in games and trying out new stuffs... i do not want to backtrack and deprove...
AFTERNOON
went singing at k ster with cher at china town after sleeping at her lec cos its really damn boring... and the lecturer actually close one eye xia... and we sang all the way from ard one plus till seven close to eight plus... went to have our kolo mee...
we sang alot of songs leh... hahas... but today de mood somehow i handle sad songs super good, happy songs average only and challenge de alrights loh... cos mui voice wasnt in tip top condition from the beginning anyway... hahas...
and i was so looking forward to getting pay cos im really broke and need to celebrate joy bdae sommore... then what, joy can lend me money to celebrate your birthday anot? lols... kidding lah hor joy... lols... *dont bite me* hahahahas...
kolo mee was not bad, today i rather lame, actually wanna da pao kolo mee ask whether SK pple wan eat anot de, then after that decided not... what if they dunno what is kolo mee, what if they think its not nice, what if i buy le they dun want, what if i buy le not hot liao ETC, hahas... so i din buy loh...
NIGHTS
went back harbourfront... rotted ard, waiting for SK to be free and me to be receiving pay... poor cher, rotted with me... to be chatting outside while sitting down is nice but we were both very tired girls just wishing for sleep... lols... and the retarded girl sudeenly declares she wanna eat TAO HUAY...
this kinda time, where find that? and she suggested Geylang... auntie stolen, aku no have transport except bus 11 leh... haiyo... then we were behaving like bims, when beer called out mui name while squatting beside lamley and having a smoke... lols...
i was about to leave already when i saw Ed at the door... speak of the devil... think of i mean... and he said he needed to talk to me but cher was hungry and im very very the cold you know, so we left for HBF point, and bought stuffs at cheers...
actually i wanted to go home liao, thinking Ed kidding ard, but he called me up and asked me back so i bo bian loh... i asked cher go home first liao, she say she pei me... haiz... thanks and sorrie... but i was glad that she was there lah...
and Ed told me something that made me feel STUNNED. STUNNED is the word... he said, I FOUND YOUR BLOG.
ED, LW : :
i read back all mui entries already. im sorrie on the point that i did not think it would do any harm to the business when i blogged anything. it was all abt mui work place, from mui view... to think that actually when i posted the photos i just wanted to show mui friends how mui new work place was like, and whether this could increase popularity for SK.
anyway, i dont think i will be removing the posts cos there is far to many, all mui memories... starting fromt he courses we had all the way till now... still far from capable but at least i see something... and i realise, i will not editing the posts either, in terms of words i mean...
because i find that i did not behave or think differently as i blogged the stuffs myself... im unhappy i tried to smile, im happy, i smiled, all as said in mui blog. for some of lw case, its just i din say things out, i did not act differently or faked anything. altho i was rather surprised why he did not tell me he found mui blog... and when did he find it... i do not say i dont like who and behave super well to who so i guess im keeping it all...
but its so hard not to mention mui work place inside mui blog! mui blog is what i feel, what i think, where i go, who i am with... and i want mui friends to know how im doing... this is important to me... gotta mention mui work places, cos its part of mui life, not to por or whatever, but as a matter of fact...
so i decide to put password to mui blog instead....so only mui close friends will know whats happening or what, and not the whole wide world who uses google and gets the 6th result... haiz... to be blogging this now, i know i gonna be tired tml but there is simply no time i can fix in to blog all these stuffs already...
actually i also dunno why i was so shocked and stunned when Ed told me you guys found mui blog...i guess its the way it got found ba... but next time whenever i see you guys, its gonna remind me of this and i dread this... but i will try work as usual, to the best of mui abilities but i need time... im not a task orientated person... X<
I WILL BE PUTTING THIS BLOG JUST AS IT IS FOR THREE DAYS AND AFTER THAT, A NEW PASSWORD WILL BE IMPOSED, FRIENDS WHO KINDLY WANTS TO KNOW ABT THE PASSWORD, PLEASE TAG MUI BOARD. THANKS AND SORRIE FOR THE INCONVENIENCE. =)
Wished She Was Loved ;
10/26/2006 01:20:00 AM
